Oh God I really think she’s gonna break up with me, why can’t I just know what to do. Dammit I hate not knowing how to be in a long relationship, I hope she can understand. I need her more than anything, I hope this isn’t the end.
I honestly think she’s gonna leave me cause we aren’t moving forward, I can’t even keep a conversation going with her anymore, I hope she just doesn’t leave me, cause I’m too slow in our relationship, I mean this is the longest relationship I have ever had and I honestly don’t know what to do anymore maybe she’ll help or hopefully I can figure out how to do this.
It’s almost 1 in the morning and I have school in about 6 hours but I keep thinking about me and you. And I’ve been thinking about our future and how bad I wanna marry you. I mean it got to the point were I was wondering if you would accept a promise ring from me. I even looked at a lot of promise rings and I actually wanna give you one since we’re way too young to be engaged but we’re still deeply in love well I am and I hope you are with me. But I wanna give you a promise ring and then look in your eyes and say “If you stay with me, I promise that one day I will give you a much bigger ring and that we will last forever.” I don’t know why but I just started thinking about the promise ring and I know its kinda crazy, especially since we’ve only been going out for a little over five months. But a lot of people say “Love makes you do crazy things.” So, I just wanted to say, I love you, Lauren, and that I will never leave you and that I want us to last forever.
